Friday 30 November 2012

25.

I usually don't give a tin pot to my life.
But you know to eradicate former strife
You need to relax and be just proud
What's the point in becoming so dammed down?
We both know we may disagree
But the point being is our philosophy.

We say to take little baby steps.
Where's the point in being wrapped within your legs
When all we could do is just squeeze so tight
Within the wake of the cold sunlight?

Neanderthals bound, words coming clear
Don't you wish they'd disappear?
And leave you be within your thoughts
Tell me now your final words?
For if they should fade to black
Never will I be on my back.

Dying so upright, dying so serene.
You'd never have guessed this in your dreams.
To live a standard life...
I'd have had to died and died...

You lived the life of an adulteress.
I never believed you to be a murderer.
Won't you sit beside me and wonder why
If there is a God we are all around to die?

Survival of the species
equates to extension of use faeces.
Why we ever live to learn is beyond me now.
So Bennett the realms I took
To heaven and above.
Yet I'm still to find the place called home.

24.

My minds a tinder box ready to explode.
Am I going crazy or just getting old?
It contains all that I have ever known.
The smell, the touch, the feel of them all
Oh what is life's true goal?

(chorus)
The meaning of existence
Is purely down to you.
One man's meat is another man's poison
Oh what now can you do
When two heads and hearts collide
Instead of following blind
Why now can't we please discover
The damned meaning of it all tonight?

there's girls out there who love to talk
And others who can only fuck
Oh man where's my own luck
When all I ask for is a chat and a night out
A metaphorical bite on my own hook.

Chorus.

And Oh yeah I'm angry is it not now plainly seen
When people are in their bubbles, absorbed within a dream?
Just because they'll never understand all the things I've seen
Doesn't mean their any less important,
Oh no, no not to me.

But you know that when the shit hits the fan
Oh now you got to remember that I am simply one man
And I'm getting by one step at a time as best as I can.
You can't forever be the libertine seeking
Many a whore to offer their hand.

Chorus.

23.

Walking around the streets back home
Memories of knee deep snow.
Oh how I'd like to go back.

That street there is where we all rode bikes
On that field you helped me fly a kite.
We were so alive.

Down that gully is where I fell down
I injured myself and smashed my crown.
Memories of frowns.

whether Battered and bloody
Or coming home muddy
I knew you'd be there to offer goodies.

The houses you knew backed up by roads
Where We saw things run over like cats and toads
Are no longer the same abodes.

The residents grew older and weaker
New moved in and some would tinker
You'd hardly believe though you were a rational thinker.

Since you've been gone
The sun shines on
But the changes never subdued my fun.

Even today I've been
These are the visions I've seen
And yet I know you were there with me.

Thursday 29 November 2012

22.

It came into my life just as a hurricane
Crashing through my door.
Scared and confused I didn't know what to do
I held my back to the wall.
So quickly it came
Yet through knowledge and pain
The eye quickly knew
What it Just had to do.

It had to get out of the city.
mankind didn't look too pretty.
And it knew then that in that short moment
That the short lived saga had stopped being golden.
The eye ripped apart
And the winds did cease.
Suddenly what started
Was a refreshing and cooling breeze.

Tuesday 27 November 2012

21

It's time to move on
I'll shed my skin
Lay down low
And hear my heart beat.
The undeniable
Insecurity
Pours me whole
Like waves on beaches.

Stars will shine
Night and day
The sun is mine
The hatred stays.
Why don't you
Become like rain
And precipitate
To your own place?

The way things open
The way things change
I never really want
To see your face again.

You've lost everything
Yet started again.
Tell me like before
Is he your only friend?

Autumn mists
They will subside
I would never
take you as a bride.
Feelings unknown
Yet so succinct
You couldn't miss them
Not even if you blinked.

Winters wind
Would chill you to the bone
When is it time
To find our love a home?
It's all gone now.
You know best.
Either way I have someone
To withhold my own interest …

Saturday 24 November 2012

20.

Everything slid by In the blink of an eye
A family problem I struggled to divide.
I should have been rational and compartmentalized.
All I could do was get drunk, moan and cry.
Everybody around me saw my Through my own shell;
A battered and bloodied person battling his own private hell.
Now years later something's finally rung that bell
How much damage has been done - you never can tell.

19.

I'm not the type of man
Who wants to complain at fate
But take a look at my face back then
And you'd only find dead weight.
No life behind my eyes
And lacking in self esteem.
Something was lacking but it never came
I was living in a hellish dream.

People tried to help me out
But they only brought me down.
Where there should have been a smile
All you'd ever see were frowns.
When I went out I acted the fool
And always felt I was the show.
This should never have happened.
Why it did, I'll never know.

Sunday 18 November 2012

18

The landslide took me away
And with that I met my maker.
The sun shines on me today
Their love Will be my Savior.

I've been stranded for so long
Wrapped in confusion
Where the slow nights burn so strong
That Time was a temporal illusion. 

Oh me oh my
Perhaps I am the wrong guy
To be caught pure blind side.
My mouth was left open wide.
And the worries in my mind
Disappear and to you I say good bye.

I was stuck in noise and confusion
The last four years have been obtuse and
I've not been all the while there.
You ran out of time to stand and stare.

The game is over
I forced your hand.
The new seeds are now
Planted in a familiar land.

Oh me oh my
I sat for days just a wondering why.
And who just the hell was that guy.
But I'm no longer shy.
You pissed me off with the time
Wasted by you in my life.

And so winter turns to spring
We all begin again.
How does he feel between your legs?
Mopping up the leftovers like soup and bread.

Resent is too far lean of a word
To describe Where you now stand in my world.
Fires Will dampen and water Will rise.
You no longer exist in my eyes.

So oh no I won't cry.
To me You've now all but died.
You led me on and now You've lied.
My head my have been high and dry
But I know in my life
At least I still have my pride.

Oh no your never taking me for a ride.
So away with you,
You'll never be the reason for ending my life.

17

I never used to believe in love
But since You've got up and gone
I'm starting to feel
That it's all real.
It took so long to understand
That it's a combination of things
That were all in my head
I got out of hand.

For the drinking and smoking
Took long to subside.
You left me and you dented my pride.
I'll get better but you'll never see
Because your no longer here
And I just want to be me.
So take your new love however you like
Yes I'm scornful but You've become the antithesis of life.

I still have my dignity, I've done no wrong
You said I'd changed when I lost my mom.
Of course that's true
But I never knew
The way I'd be
When the seasons changed to years.
All of my tears are gone
And it's simply time to move on.

I've got a job I'll get by
I'll find another lover in due time.
For now it's daybreak:
Time for that mental stock take
And no longer worry of how best to please you.
I'm no fool
You were wrong and I right.
I Will never succumb to you again in my life.

Saturday 10 November 2012

16.


Plain views upon horizons glared
I spoke and you were ensnared
The encapsulation of a persona I could never be
I led you to believe all that you could see
Through formative silver screens and devine sight
You spoke to me through the late of night
I sat there aghast at my own misfortune
You obsolete, ensnared within your own capsule.

My age is known only to those that can view
Points of interest and lives less askewn
From the formative constricted realism
In the age-old truth.
I've stared long and hard for many long years
And wiped away many minor tears
You drag me down with your metophors
But I speak my own and tell you of future terrors.

Open your eyes and onward bound
We go to a life beyond the repercussions,
Where all you can hear is my own sound;
The time-keeper of discussion.
You and I will soar formitively
To a life less ordinary
Why don't you just listen to the one last beat?
Use your ears and take a seat...